Thoughts swirling around in my head…
The walls coming down
All the walls coming down
Everything I wanted (almost)
But so fast, faster than I can take in.
So many barriers lying in ashes at my feet.
Barriers I yearned to demolish, wept over, prayed over, teeth gnashing,
Days and endless nights spent in agony, rage, despair.
A oneness I yearned to attain
Suddenly here.
No fanfare, no warning.
Just a logical sequence of events,
A logical application of spiritual principle,
Slowly plodding through life.
A oneness I yearned for all my life,
Never having known,
Trying to describe,
Something missing,
Trying futilely to describe,
Feeling the emptiness
Not knowing how to explain.
I see myself standing on a precipice
Part of a circle.
A circle of Others
Souls who seek
Who seek Above All
to
Be of Benefit.
Each groping blindly
Each making huge mistakes
Mistakes that do irreparable harm.
And yet---each struggling nobly to Help.
Never giving up. Never abandoning the Vision.
Trying Again. And Again. To be a Light.
These souls---
These Souls of Great Power---
They are my Brothers.
I am Part of Them.
The Ones I always sought,
And never knew that I was a Part of.
The Powerful Ones.
It was Service that brought me to this place---
Service, but also an unremitting determination to See Myself as I am.
Ha, what a joke! To think that we could possibly See Ourselves---but the effort, the Noble Effort. The effort brings us Closer.
Life has begun for me. A brand new Life. God has opened a Door---and I’m walking through.
This is NOT life as I knew it.
This is, truly, Life.
